Date: Wed, 20 Jun 2001 22:02:11 -0700
From: ef
Subject: Re: the rich


i am fucking pissed off. you know how i am trying to collect money to send to jozsi, for his sick wife, to be able to survive the next difficult months, all that. and you know how i said i was willing to humiliate myself to do this, me and my stupid hungarian pride, like a ball in my throat. so i humiliated myself, i called up the mother of one of my best friends. he ain't rich, he's a dancer. he lives in japan now. but his parents are filthy with it, sitting on millions, i ain't kidding. i know his parents, i have been friends with him for 30 yrs. everytime he comes to town i get dragged over there, or out for dim sum, with his mother.

so i call up his mother. and explain. and apologize. and tell her what i am doing and why. blablablabla. i really felt weird. but they have so much. so would you help, i ask. and i apologize some more for asking. sure she says, don't worry, i understand. i will send you a check, she says.

so i wait, for whatever, a week or so, for the check to get here. and fantasize about that little bit of happiness i can make.

and today it arrives. it's a check for 20 bucks. when i saw it i almost burst into tears. but then i got pissed off instead.

those of my friends who have nothing, send me 20 bucks. and to them i am grateful. cause for my friends, that is a lot. from my friends that is a fortune,

from these rich assholes, it is an insult. may they rot in their waterfront mansion.

... i guess i am getting over it now.

in any case, thanks to someone, i have the grandfather fund taken care of until at least september. and the houseguest i have had for the last week contributed some, and he don't have much either. and annie is coming over and she will bring something too. and juliet wants to contribute from her severance pay. so i *will* get help to jozsi, it's just a matter of time, goddamm it.

i called jozsi to tell him, you know, so much despair. i said, just hang on a bit, me and my friends, we know what it's like, we'll help.